I was sixteen years old when I made a “choice” that changed my life forever. The effects the abortion had on my life lasted far beyond the time spent at the clinic that day. The nurse said it would be a simple procedure. She said they were just going to remove the “mass of tissue” There was nothing simple about it and it turned my life upside down. It’s as if my heart and soul were taken that day, along with my baby. I would spend the next decade running from the painful memories of the abortion.

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I turned to drugs and alcohol to numb my pain. I went from experimenting with drugs to a full-blown crack addict. It led me down a dark path of addiction that lasted for ten long years. This addiction led to a cycle of incarceration and desperation. There was a cry deep inside my soul for freedom.

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JESUS literally rescued me out of a prison far worse than any jail I have ever been to. You know the prison that’s on the inside of you that you can’t break free from? Some of us serve a life sentence locked up with pain so deep it seems we will never get free. It was only through God’s love, his Word, and the power of the Holy Spirit-The very presence of God- that I found true healing. Drugs can only offer a temporary escape. But I found lasting change. Jesus gave me the freedom I had been crying out for.

 

What is Post Abortion Syndrome?

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Post abortion syndrome is the aftereffects resulting from abortion. You may be wondering, Am I struggling with “post abortion syndrome”? To answer that question, ask yourself if you have struggled with any of the following:

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1. Feeling sad when you think about the abortion(s).

2. Feelings of guilt or shame.

3. Trying to forget about it and put it behind you but the memories keep resurfacing.

4. Flashbacks or triggers that remind you of the abortion. For instance a particular sound, smell, place, day, or song?

5. Finding it difficult to get through a particular time of year- specifically around the time of the abortion or the time that your baby would have been born. Do you remember that day as if it is an anniversary or birthday?

6. Depression or thoughts of suicide.

7. Inflicting self-harm such as cutting, eating disorders, and/or sexual promiscuity.

8. Do you wonder if your baby was a boy or a girl?

9. Difficulty being around pregnant women or attending baby showers.

10. Change in behavior since the abortion such as drugs and/or alcohol use.

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If you answered yes, you may be struggling to deal with the abortion.

There is hope. You are not alone. We are here to help.